F*ck

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It’s incredible how quickly things can turn to shit. Last Saturday I had one of those runs that I sometimes dream about, an easy recovery run where I felt weightless and my mind drifted to thoughts of running on the beach in Hawaii in the warm summer sun. I felt hopeful that PR’s were on the horizon, and I could almost feel myself crossing the finish line in Boston with the biggest smile on my face, tears of joy streaming down my face as I reunited with my family.

Sunday morning I hopped on the treadmill for a 14 miler in between getting reading for a family get-together at my house. Twelve miles in I started to feel a tightness in my lower back, and I briefly considered stopping, but with only two miles left I pressed on anyway. As soon as I finished, I knew something felt off, but I had a lot to do to get ready for company so I stupidly ignored it. By the end of the afternoon I could barely walk. The pain had shifted from a vague area in my lower back/ left hip, to a specific area I knew all too well: my piriformis, aka the most god-awful pain in my (literal) ass. F*ck.

I’ll skip the details of the next three days where I spent every waking minute over-analyzing the progress of my supposed injury. I had determined three days was a perfectly acceptable number of days to rest, so I set out on an easy run pushing Emmaline yesterday morning fully expecting everything to be fine. From the first step I knew it was not, but I kept running anyway. After two miles, I thought I’d let it warm up a little more and see if it got better. I was running a 9:30 pace, which is basically walking anyway, I thought. At four miles, I knew. This was going to be my last run for awhile. So I ran four more miles, all the while feeling the weight of my crushed running dreams and trying to hold back the tears.

I know I’m being dramatic, but anyone who has ever gone from a 100% healthy body to completely ruined overnight will sympathize. I have an appointment on Monday morning with a specialist, and I’m hoping for the best, but I’m also prepared for the possibility of shitty news.

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11 thoughts on “F*ck

  1. Oh no!! I’m so sorry. What on earth is going on in the Hampton Roads water? We have almost the same thing plaguing us and it popped up out of no where for both of us too. Keeping my fingers crossed that you heal up FAST. Try not to panic, it might clear up in a matter of a few days.

    • Ugh, I don’t know Kris. I think I read about your injury right before I ran, because I remember thinking it was psychosomatic. I hope it does clear up soon. We need to get together and drown our sorrows πŸ™‚

      • There is something in the water of HR. People are either catching the pregs or getting injured. I’m wishing the both of you a very speed recovery.

  2. So sorry, Mollie. I completely understand. I was training for a marathon last fall, and I pushed through my last 20 miler with the same kind of pain. My training up to that point had been fantastic, no worries at all. I ended up not running the marathon, and had to take several weeks off, going to Physical Therapy 2 times a week. Piriformis syndrome and hip bursitis is what I had. I’m finally coming back. I hope it is only piriformis syndrome and nothing more serious. Sending healing thoughts your way.

  3. That damn piriformis!! I had the same issue a few years ago. After some PT, ice, and the help of my tens unit (and taking ridiculous amounts of Advil which I will never fess up to) I was able to get back sooner than everyone thought. Sending speedy healing recovery vibes your way!

    • I had no idea this was so common. I am also taking ridiculous amounts of medication (what’s the big deal, they make prescription strength 800 mg, that’s the same as 4 over the counter pills, right?). I’m happy to hear that yours cleared up quickly.

  4. I really hope you are able to get good news and feel better soon. I’ve heard that injury clears up really quickly (the one person I’ve chatted with who had something similar). I hope yours is the same way.

    • That’s good to know. I really wish my appointment was tomorrow because I would just like to know what my prognosis is. I haven’t had an injury in so long, I forget how to deal with it.

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