Feeling Broken

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This week has been draining in every possible way. Grades for progress reports were due yesterday, and I unfortunately got behind on a few other things at work so I had to play catch-up. Not only that, but I had a meeting after school yesterday and one today (as well as a hair appt after work tomorrow) which cuts into the two hours of daylight that I have for usually reserved for training.

I feel like a zombie.

I look good.

After a great workout on Sunday I’ve been really tight, my right hip flexor is sore, my feet ache. I had to switch my Monday and Tuesday workout so I ended up doing 10 miles on Monday and it didn’t feel good. Yesterday felt pretty awful as well. I think I might just take the day off today beacuse that did the trick last time I felt like this. I scheduled a down week this week anyway.

Why do I struggle so much with taking a day off? The “old” me would never, ever take a day off. That’s how I wound up with a stress fracture in my foot before the Olympic Trials in 2004, on top of anemia that wouldn’t go away for months. I didn’t listen to my body. I learned my lesson, but I still feel guilty when I miss a day.

I do have a piece of good news to end this pathetic post. Even though I gained 8 lbs after the marathon, I’ve been able to lose 6 of them in 6 weeks of training. I can almost see my ab muscles again! Also, I’ve overcome my fear of stepping on the scale. I weighed my self every day for a week (including before and after runs) because my weight fluctuates like crazy and I just wanted to figure out what the hell was going on. I did a few science experiments on myself and now that I have it figured out I feel a lot better. I think most of my fluctuations are due to hydration in combination with my “time of the month”. Probably TMI… anyway, in a few weeks I should be back down to my weight from the marathon (125) and then hopefully a few pounds lighter by Shamrock marathon and track season (120). I plan to weigh myself twice per week just to keep things in check.

Just FYI- I do not subscribe to the whole thinner = faster thing (been down that road before). 120 is a healthy weight for my height (5’4″) and I’m not trying to lose weight at this point, just keeping track of how my training is affecting my weight (and logging in in my BIA journal of course).

Dear scale: I win

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